"I'm gonna kick tomorrow! I'm gonna kick to-morrow!"
Jane's Addiction - "Jane Says"
No, I'm not quiting +The Horror Library+...or my editing gig over at Cutting Block Press.
Not kicking heroine either. Never tried it.
I'm quitting SMOKING tomorrow. Which...is probably just as hard as quitting heroine.
I've been a regular smoker since I was 16 years old. Since I got my first car and could go and be free and drive around...and smoke all the while.
Well...I'm not 16 anymore. It doesn't 'make me look cool'. And in fact...it's making me feel like shit.
I've smoked for 20 years. Geez, when I say it like that and say it aloud...it sounds pretty messed up. Pathetic, in fact.
Now, I'll never get down on other smokers. Hell, I understand the addiction and just how hard it is. I'll still be living with a roommate who smokes and while the temptation to just 'bum one' will be ever present, I think I can fight it this time and not start again.
For my health, I hope so.
Not going to bother with 'the patch' this time. It was only mildly helpful the last time I quit and I started back up. I'm going to rely solely upon willpower and my own desire to change and to conquer the grip that my nicotine addiction has upon me. I can do this.
I have 2 cigarettes left. After that...not another.
Anyone want to share their stories of quitting?
I've had other addictions before, but not one that's had a grip on me for over 20 years. Kicking those habits were a hell of a lot easier, believe it or not.
So, let's just keep it to 'quit smoking' stories. I got my own stories about other battles...but for now, I'd rather just focus upon this one and maybe some of your own stories and support can help get me through this.
Thanks much in advance, folks!
R.J. Cavender























